I might survive afterall

Well, I'm not going to say how long it has been. I'm just going to continue...

Looking back over some old blogs I'm realizing that I've been fighting a losing battle. I have been absolutely miserable at my job for over three years at least. One thing right after another. Pressure and suffocation. What am I still waiting for?

I think it was a year ago this October that I had an epiphany about my job. I could leave any time I wanted. I could find another job if I wanted. For so many years I had worked for a woman that made me feel like she couldn't survive (physically or mentally) without me. I loved her very much as a friend and mentor, but I couldn't save her from herself. I realize now that I never could. It should have been up to her all along.

But I stayed anyway, feeling trapped and helpless. My position changed, my salary decreased by about 45%. I thought I was going to die... and I didn't... go figure. We (me and my family) figured out how to live on less (for the most part)... and we have survived.

Well, even after learning all I've learned, I still made mistakes, and they finally caught up to me. I was once again moved to another department and my income was reduced even lower... and I think it's the best thing that has ever happened to me.

I'm ready for the next adventure. My cords have been cut. I am free to do whatever I want.