Many a moon

It has been many a moon since I last dropped a line here. I love the way that sounds. Many-a-moon. It sounds old fashioned and weathered. Plus, I think it really describes how I feel at this moment, because it has been a while since I've blogged anything. Not that I have to catch up or keep track or meet a certain quota, but I feel like I've neglected it, and I always feel bad about neglecting things.

I have resisted the urge to blog, because I know I should be harnessing all my energy into the NANO WriMo 2006 contest. Blogging is not the only thing I'm neglecting. I haven't really participated with my critique group. While I have lost 30 lbs. since January 2006 (yeah!), I have not been keeping up with my Sparks People website. In fact, I feel guilty taking the time to do my check book on line, knowing I should be writing instead. My mother is wanting me to do some name doilies for her for Christmas presents, and her list keeps growing.

How pathetic does that sound? The funny thing is, I'm still having trouble getting words down on paper, and I'm finding alternative means to procrastinate. So all the neglect is really not doing my any favors!!!

I have a game-plan.

1) When I get done with my contest (which I am doing pretty good at. I hit the 20,000+ word mark last night) I'm going to focus on critiquing for the month of December. I have some really great critiquers that have done a bang-up job helping hammer out my corrections, and I need to reciprocate.

2) I'm going to re-evaluate the need for Sparks People. I feel I'm on the right track, so I don't need to track things so agressively. While I haven't lost any weight this last week, I have maintained very well. In fact, even though I can't see it in the mirror, I'm actually getting into clothes I could wear last year!

3) As for the doilies. They do not take very long, but it is difficult to meet my mother's standard at times. I do feel apprehension about the whole process. I'm just going to have to make a list, and do the best I can. Doilies are a silly reason to have an anxiety attack.

4) Something I hadn't mentions previously... I want to take an online writing course... fear of the unknown!!!!!!! I would say more, but I feel anxiety coming on even as I type.

So, I don't really know if it has helped to put this down into words, but here it is. It may be a while before I have time to groan again, so until then... Keep me in your prayers and God Bless...