Today

Today I am in the middle of a fibro attach. I'm not depressed, but I feel down. My neck is killing me, and other parts of my body seem to be following: my shoulders, my arms, my stomach muscles, my back...

Today is Monday. I think that speaks for it's self ;)

Today does not look very promising. I don't want to get around and get ready. I've already fought with my children. (my youngest is a picky eater -- I wouldn't say the pickiest in the world, because I've met the pickiest, but he can give them a run for their money)

Today I just want to go back to bed and sleep, but then that would make tomorrow the first day of the week, which will put me in the perdicament, if I maintain this mentality.

Today, today, today. Why today? Why not?

I know everything is a choice. I don't have to wallow in my whinyness. But I'm too tired to do anything else! (make sure you read that with a whine in your voice ;))

It is not today's fault that I won't go to bed before 11:30 p.m. (darn) It's not today's fault that I've fallen off the healthy bandwagon and been eating junk more frequently. (darn it, again) It's not today's fault that I have too much work, and don't get it done because I'd rather be on the computer. (This is getting irritating) It's not today's fault. It is mine. (fine, be that way)

So what do I do? Changing my attitude is the first step. Getting to bed earlier is a good idea. Balance work and play and family is a good idea. Choose to stop procrastinating. (not always easy, but can be done)

So, I hurt, I'm tired, I have a lot to do today... I hurt, I'm tired, I have a lot to do today... oh wait, I already said that... I think I'm going to get a sweet tea from McDonald's on the way to work, and maybe a yogart parfait... I'm going to pick up some paint supplies and do a project with my kids tonight... I think I'm going to give my husband room to have his own bipolar fit and choose not to let it get me down any more than it already has... I think I'm only going to control what I can control today, and that is me.